Recollection

It's the night before work, and thank goodness I don't have to wake up early because I am working nights. So today after coming home from an evening with my girlfriends and planning Bev's staggette, I hear my little boy calling mommy from up the stairs. I was really excited to hear his voice and ran up to see him, and here was this pleasant little boy that couldn't stop talking to me as soon as he caught sight of me. It was mostly baby language, but I can hear some mommy in there haha. He sat on my lap and we just chit chatted for the longest time. Where has the time gone? My little guy isn't so little anymore. I try everyday to remember things about him (such as facial expressions and things that he did) before he was age 1. I am thinking up starting up a diary about him, is that a little much you think? Well until I find a nice book to write it in, tonight I'm going to list down things that stand out that make me happy:

-one time in vegas, and ethan was around 8 months, I was sleeping and he slept next to me...I woke up in the middle of the night to something wet touching my eyes. Haha and when I opened my eyes, I saw these puckered lips coming at my eyes, and it was my little bugger, giving me kisses on my eyes while I was sleeping. So cute!

-When he just came home from the hospital, and I was always afraid he'd stop breathing cuz he did that for a while in the hospital, all those apneic episodes really scared me.....he slept in bed with me and my hubby. I would move him to the middle, but he'd squirm his way to sleep against me, everytime i opened my eyes i'm thinking..hey haha how did you get back here next to me.

-How he'd always know when he's near my work when my hubby's picking me up.

-monster sounds he used to make when he was a baby haha, or he'd talk like a monster.

-first words were nononono

-first movie we took him to was Wall-E, he looooovvved it!

-Ethan loves hearing bedtime stories that are made up by me haha. The stories usually include a little boy named ethan or wooky and all the family memebers.

-The first time he burst out in loud laughter was by my hubby, I was getting ready in the bathroom and Rob was doing something that made him burst into laughter. sigh...how i love his laugh haha.

-The time when I had to take CPR class, and my friends Shareen and Bev babysat him. I came home to some very exhausted girls haha.

hmmm...i'm thinking i need to get a book asap!! I want to write down all the details of my lovely memories before i forget them. And there are so many more memories to come. Everyday holds a great memory, and if i could, i'd have a photographic memory.

Anyway, I'm the luckiest mom in the whole entire world. Ethan made life so much more precious and meaningful! I never thought I could have so much love in my life.

Saturday night.

Well I thought I'd make a blog thingy since my thoughts need a place somewhere, and I thought it'd be nice to unload them here. Even if no one reads haha.

Anyway, I am now another year older and I've stepped past being in my mid twenties, I am now occupying up more than half of my twentiessss!! I have been having trouble with that. I think it's a fear of getting old, ppl in my life getting older cuz I've realized that I'm getting older so they must be getting older, and the fear of death. I know it sounds silly, but I want to preserve everything I have around me. I feel like I'm still 21, but time is passing me by. I wonder how I will feel if I ever reach 70, will I feel 21? Haha so strange! And will I still be listening to R&B hip hop type music and doing the robot dance? And if so, will my son Ethan think it's cool cuz he might be listening to that too, or are we all just old fashioned ppl that live in an old folk's home listening to Biggie and our kids will be like omg my mom is so old fashioned. You never know...cuz my mom thought Elvis was cool and well haha I don't. Anyhow, that's my blog for now. Be back later.